Complicated Grief

I found a term today that may describe me - but I'm not exactly sure. It's called complicated grief. The definition goes something like this; Complicated grief is unresolved grief that is a term used to describe a prolonged sense of mourning.

That pretty much sums it up for me right now doesn't it? Unresolved grief. Here's the problem, everything I read talks about helping the person get past the death of a loved one - helping them move through bereavement, mourn it out as it were, to get to place of health. Strangest thing though, I couldn't find anything telling me how to get past the type of loss that I am experiencing.

Recently I was praying and thinking that I don't ever want Andrew's mother to go through, to feel the things, that I am feeling. That I don't want her to have to reap what she is sewing and then it hit me.... What did I plant that the crop I'm reaping is so very bitter?